For the vast majority of my life, I hid my feelings inside, never letting anyone know how I felt about pre-pubescent girls. I never knew anyone else who had the same feelings, or if I did, I didn't know they did. My feelings of lonliness, too, I had to hide away, because if couldn't tell anyone why I was lonely, either. I never even communicated wtih another person anywhere, ever, who liked pre-pubescent girls the way I did. Every one I ever heard of was either dead or in jail, and I was too fearful to contact anyone who was in jail.

Now, I have a lot of people to communicate with here, most of whom are attracted to pre-pubescent girls just as I am (well, maybe not most, it's hard to tell). But I still feel alone in this sense: it seems like everyone else here is attracted to other types of people, and it seems like most of you are able to have satisfying relationship with adults, even to the point of getting married and having children of your own.

I don't have that. I don't like women at all (ah, let me rephrase that: I'm not attracted to women at all, that's more accurate), I don't find teens attractive, I don't like men, I don't like boys, I don't like babies. There's the old joke about "You wouldn't kick her out of bed, would you?" and I can't open my mouth and say "Yes." about any of the examples that people say this about, but my answer is always "Yes, I would" because nobody ever says it about a girl that I wouldn't kick out of bed.

And so even here, among people who share and understand my attraction to the girls I like, or at least allow me the right to have thee feelings, even here I feel isolated, carrying a burden nobody else understands. Is there no one else who is attracted exclusively to girls from about 3 to 9? Is there no one else who has about the same emotional reaction to the growth of breasts as they do to the growth of mold on an otherwise good loaf of bread? Is there anyone here who understands how it feels to have people talking about lowering the AOC to 12, and how worthless that would be to them?

Or am I all alone in this, even here?