I think that what you said was just exactly what I needed to hear right now. The need for a 'model' to structure our feelings, to find a way to fit into a society that gives us NO options, is the greatest burden of my attraction, and I was just wondering if there was anyone else here who even had that problem or could begin to understand it. I mean, it's one thing if you like pizza more than sour kraut and you're only given sour kraut to eat, it's something else again if sour kraut makes you sick and you're not allowed to eat anything else. It just seemed to me like everyone else here could eat sour kraut if they had to, and couldn't understand my hunger at having nothing at all that I was allowed to eat. I know I'm saying all of that very badly; you said it all much better.