Hi all,

I'm currently listening to I'm Walking Away (by Craig David), while thinking back of all I've done and tried to do for the pedophile community and for all those children who live a life without body pleasure only because of the haters. The haters, "I saw them with my own eyes spreading those lies". I'm trying "to find a better day" for you all. I know, that "sometimes some people get me wrong, when it's something I've said or done", but I'm trying the best I can!

For just over eight years now, I've been open about my special feelings towards the little ones. Because "well I don't wanna live a lie". All the things I've written, all the websites I've build, all the media appearances. Death threats. Many death threats. Still alive.

Five weeks ago, the Support of Activism project has been announced on several boards, including on GirlChat   http://www.annabelleigh.net/messages/357350.htm   and BoyChat. The project has since been mentioned on several occasions, including during the PNVD interview for Pedologues at BoyTalk and Sure Quality Radio, which was also announced on GirlChat   http://www.annabelleigh.net/messages/358608.htm   and BoyChat. Money makes the world go 'round and activists need it. So far, we managed to collect a total of $0.

That's not very much.

I've been comparing the project's mission with that of Free Spirits. Mainly because they collected over $13,000 in a similar period (fundraiser 2005). As activists, we try to promote changes in our society to allow sexual freedom for children, including loving physical intimacy with older persons if and when they so choose. In contrast, Free Spirits more narrowly tries to promote open communication among boy lovers. Is the answer that open communication is valued over our efforts in trying to change society to become less fascistic?

Free Spirits is a player that has been around for years. But so have Krumme 13 and MARTIJN Association. The project also has many publicly out child lovers on board, there is a clear mission statement and a specific list of projects that are eligible for support. Surely, those activist organizations together, including the involved activists, weigh-in at the same weight class as Free Spirits?

Free Spirits can promise its forums will be there for another year. The Support of Activism project can only promise it's members will do what they can to change the world for the better. If people think there's no way we can change anything, ever or at least not right now, they probably think it's a waste of money to support us. On the other hand, how much worse should things get before we agree any counterweight is welcome. Is our problem that our accomplishments cannot be measured?

Does the project lack ways to send money? There's the international post office money order, and also the possibility to send cash. Does Free Spirits provide their supporters more options?

Maybe people are happy with the way things are. I'm serious. They are talking about boys and girls, looking at YouTube videos, occasionally jerking off at child porn (not you), talking about how sad the world has become. Maybe it's because pedophiles do only care about themselves. Not giving a shit that the world is going to hell, because they can still be with kids as long as they don't mention their special feelings for them. Those who do get in trouble, that's just bad luck. Why waste money on activist projects when forums like GirlChat and BoyChat are still legal. Maybe pedophiles are egoistic pigs?

I don't know. You tell me. None of you donated any money, so you should all be able to give me answers. Don't lie by telling me you don't have any money. I honestly hope to learn from your answers. It's not like people don't like the things we do. Maybe people forget very quickly about how happy and enthusiastic they were when an activist or an activist project managed to get across that we're not (all) monsters?

For now, "I'm walking away", since it's way past midnight in the Netherlands and I'm already dealing with "too many sleepless nights".

Kind regards, Norbert