Hello to new and old alike. Not sure how long it's been since my last post, but it's been years since I was last active. Just thought I'd stop by and say hi again.

An update on my girls...

Restaurant Girl (RG): She's not a little girl anymore. She's nearly full grown now. She's doing well for herself, amazing in school, coming into her own quite nicely. I love her still, but she's been cold towards me for a long time now. I don't know why. It's been frustrating and I miss her, but I'm glad for how well she's doing and I hope she doesn't resent me.

Cup Girl: She was already entering adolescence when she first entered the picture. She's now a full on adult. She's been through a lot with a line of bad boyfriends and abuse from her manipulative family. She almost ended up homeless at one point and her mom literally stole her car and there was nothing she could do about it. It was rough, but she's been doing better since getting away finally.

"11yo" (never actually 11 in any of my posts): She remains one of my closest friends. I've known her for so many years now. I saw her graduate high school. I've traveled across the country multiple times to visit her wherever she happened to be living. She means a lot to me. While we've never had any kind of romance between us, or any desire for anything beyond friendship, it still gives me hope that relationships between adults and kids don't have to be harmful. I love her dearly and I hope that one day friendships like ours won't be considered suspect to other people.

"Lexie" (formerly My Little Girl): I haven't seen or heard from her in many years now. I've cut myself off from her family due to the way they treated me. From what I'm aware, she's been doing well. I hope she grows into a better person than the rest of her family.


How do you meet little girls? That's rhetorical, don't answer that. I just have never understood it. Mine have always been random chance. Just happened to be in the right place at the right time for a kid to notice me and make the first moves to be friends. I don't know how people find young friends. I'm getting older now. I can't as easily pass for the "young and cool older friend" anymore. I haven't really changed, but the number I have to tell people certainly has. Makes it so hard to find meaningful connections with people I enjoy being around. It's been ages since I've had a nice interaction with a young girl. They were never a common occurrence, but they used to happen. It feels like I'm more isolated from everyone than ever now. I still hold in there, hoping to have the kind of relationship I would find fulfilling, I just don't know how to look for it.

Anyway, I hope everyone here is doing well. I hesitate to ask about anyone I used to know here given how long it's been, but those that remember me, I hope you're doing well.