Been down that CP road.

I am against porn now. It did mess up my life. But in the addiction it didn't feel that way. It was so hot to be honest. But that's when I thought that I wasn't going to get caught. I was blind to any damage. But I got that feared knock 5 years ago. It changed my beliefs and feelings. I knew for sure it was wrong to have such a collection. Luckily I get only years of probation for it. But deep down I think liking children in the sexual sense is the last reason I actually am attracted to them. I'm attracted to the innocence. Attracted to the fact that they aren't sexual. They don't do things for men or a boyfriend. They just want to play and enjoy life. Sexuality is more absent. It is more of an adult thing in most cases. I just would want a little girlfriend that just hangs out with me. I can play with. Laugh with.