I cannot do anything about it other than what I am doing (avoidance), but I strongly want an emotional and romantic involvement with a little girl, and have done so in the past (as many who know me already know about me.) But I also have a fetish that, (a) I do not want, but (b) cannot get rid of.

I think this puts me in a very unusual position of loving someone but will hurt them emotionally. I hate this about me. Anyway, for TWO reasons, I stay away from any kind of involvement. By choice.

Regarding this post and every post I write about myself describing my past, be advised that I was tried, convicted, sentenced to a very long time in prison, and I served the complete sentence. Be further advised that I am no longer practicing illegal activities today and that I refrain from doing so by my own choice, not from fear of legal entanglements or society's outrage. I remain crime free because I choose to.