Just as I thought. Good to see that you are alive!
Once I said that I found a new idea, but it suddenly created a conflict with some older thing, and I felt really frustrated -- and after two days I said that I managed to solve that new problem.
Anyway I'm very disappointed again, I was after an idea that felt almost like a vision, but it was too abstract, and it seems that I cannot make it more concrete, so I think I will put it in folder "Discarded" and forget it. This is not in the least important to anyone else, but it is important to me, because it is the only thing that is left in my life (there is no sad tone in that sentence).
Btw, cannot even read Gogol at the moment, he is too Great Russian despite his origin.