After reading your post, I put my phone down and audibly said “wow”. You perfectly and eloquently described how I have been feeling for the last 8 or so years.

If I met my closest LGF now and I was the age I first got really close with her, we’d easily be a socially acceptable couple. First year of college and finishing post-grad.

I don’t remember if you were in the same boat as me… but I kind of had the dream child lover relationship with her, everything but sexual and maybe deeper romance.

Now I sit here, catching myself longing for those days, unable to create another such relationship because I am “too much” an adult. The more I try, the further it slips from my grasp.

Hopelessness is always in my periphery… lurking. Crumbs of what once was keep it at bay.

You know what sucks for me? My former LGF… she’s insanely attractive to me still. Large breasts, tall, still beautiful, smart, she really picked up my libertarian viewpoints and we talk about it a lot. No chance though, the world does not allow such well built relationships. We aren’t that far off. It wouldn’t be as bad as Leonardo DiCaprio and his girls lol

Whatever, I feels with you.