Whatever is coming your way, I hope you survive it well. I'll be here to read anything you post. I'll add my two cents' worth, if I can.
I have been where you are now. In fact, I went to prison and did the entire sentence. Today, I am a free man living without encumbrances Society would normally want to chain me to. I am lucky. I am healthy (for the most part), I live comfortably, I have a few friends, and I find my life worth continuing to experience.
Your life is what you make it as you travel through time. As I said, I wish you all the best.