I'm really sorry to hear about what happened to you. Your post (especially the last part) left me in shock.

I really don't know how can I comment your story or what advice I can give you. Someone smarter than me will give you advice, I can just say that I feel for you, and I hope that this time it will work out well (as well as it can, anyway).

Please keep us informed.

Have hope.
Newt