Sorry to tell you this, but my impression is that you're falling in a spiked pit. Beware of cognitive distortions like these:

They're just trying to help me.

They are trying to control you. They will twist it into something like this: "do you want to control yourself? i'm here to help you control yourself"; a gross euphemism for control.

Watch their lack of enthusiasm if you also happen to be depressed, have anxiety problems or any other illness. If they were truely there to help you, they'd be as enthusiastic and agressive in treating your depression, your anxiety, etc.

It's the proof that they're not there to help you.

I'm talking about myself because i want to.

All therapists learn in school to make you talk. She will stare at you without speaking even after you're finished talking. This creates an akward moment, and you feel like you need to add more and specify more even if you didn't want to, at the beginning.

She smiles often. Her body language tells me she understands what i'm telling her.

She wants to hear as much as possible about your "sick thoughts" and possibly "sick acts". Thinking that the end justifies the means, she will try to make you as comfortable and will behave like a friend to make you talk.

The therapist stops treating you like a human being. All they see in front of them is a potential offender. They'll bullshit you like you've never been bullshitted in your entire life.

We're a team. I'm collaborating and she works with me, i feel like she'd never do anything drastic without seeking my consent first.

The therapist is trying to make you confess as much as possible. Anything drastic can happen anytime, because they don't see a human being in you but a potential child abuser.

But i think i need help because i'm depressed, etc.

If you need help for depression or something like that, dump your current therapist. Find a new one and don't tell him/her that you have any kind of pedophilic thoughts. This will make the therapist more cooperative to your depression (other) problems, if you have any.

How do i dump my therapist?

If you do that, the therapist will try to make you believe that she's a professional and other similar b.s. Don't buy into it. Tell her you've talked about this with experienced people (me) and i said that she's a manipulative evil demon.