I cannot and will not offer pat solutions.

But I am saddened to hear this and I wish that you could feel it differently even if you cannot have what you want.

Its impossible as Pedos to entirely disentangle clinical depression from situational depression, given our situation. But do not discount entirely the notion that there might be an element of chemical imbalance going on to look into.

I hope that you find some measure of joy and do not continue to feel that everything has been poisoned. But regardless of any other outcome. you have my condolences.

Dante