GirlChat #606105
This post may make no sense. It will be dark. I cannot explain. And no one may give a fuck. Some may, and I thank you in advance. Some may cheer and be happy at my misery. Again, I cannot explain.
I do not know how many months, weeks, days, hours I have left. The end will be as miserable as the beginning. Unwanted. Tortured. Abused. A Tale of Two Ends. Bookends of my life. Misery and Sorrow. Every second, literally, the fear grows. I have NOT molested anyone; nor have I had a loving, consensual inter-generational relationship. Both of which seem to be the same in this fucked up world. Not of late. All my miserable life I have ONLY and ALWAYS JUST WANTED TO LOVE AND BE LOVED. I have NEVER awakened even one day in my life thinking of how I could hurt anyone or cause any misery to another. I care. I am kind to animals and people. I want the best for all of God's creatures. Emptiness is what I feel. Darkness. Hate. Anger. The end. Full of pain. For whatever time I have left I will come here now and then. I will try to put on a happy face. But I will only be The Great Pretender. To all who have been kind to me....Thank You! |