It's so nice to see that you got through it and now you're slowly taking back your humongous strenght.

You're right about how you always encouter or hear about someone who haves it harder. It's just like "There is always better than you". Unwritten rules of life. I'm glad you're new job opened you this relationship and the idea of a self-sufficient farm.

You should follow Lux idea and record your life so that your son can watch it later. That way, whatever he's been told about you, he'll realize by himself how great you were.

Take Care my friend :)