When I was young, lonely and very melancholic, I sometimes liked the song by J.S. Bach or one of his sons: Liebster Herr Jesu (Dearest Jesus). This was a long time ago.

And later I still liked Oskar Lindberg's Gammal fäbodpsalm från Dalarna (Old pastoral hymn from Dalarna).

Now the first song sounds absolutely horrible to hear, incredibly slow and drawn out. And I cannot stand the latter song either: too melancholic and gloomy.

It means that I am not as pessimistic, melancholic and hopeless as I once used to be. Now I am just bored, joyless, yes, life feels heavy, but I am no longer depressed and melancholic in the same way as before.