Same here, though I didn't want to mention the predicament.
You may know this. I have a very impenetrable wall around me at this board. You know the history here, so it shouldn't surprise you. Most who were ever in chat would also say I am not quite the same there as here. I am the same individual in both places. I can't really expand more than that, especially to the entire world on a public message board. I'd rather some people deem me a piece of shit. I can at least deal with that.
..Relevant to why I forgave Haj, actually. And no hate toward those who never wanted the real-time experience of chat.