(hug) I'm sorry you are feeling so down.
How does a two day vacation make you feel all that way?
We all need rest and relaxation sometimes.
You post here often and are a valued person here at GC by the people here. I'm sure you have some people in your offline life who appreciate you. I am glad you are here.
You, and everyone here, are very welcome to come to Lifeline anytime we are open. We are run by and for CLs since 2001, an active chat room for people like you and me. Unfortunately that no longer describes GCC anymore. It was founded as a support chat, but when that isn't necessary we just generally chat about stuff.
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