...because a lengthy fruitless time period I found a couple of good ideas again. Only ghod knows how tired** I have been with the missing ideas, the missing solutions, the constant conflicts between ideas, plus the feeling that sometimes hits me, this sudden doubt: hey, all I have been creating is pure shit after all.

And this struggle has also made me very reluctant to think about any other difficult problems in life, anything that requires brain work.

** this could be some kind of depression, at least fatigue