your Allah sees it.

My own higher power seems to have a sense of humor, lately sending me a truly sexually abused former child who today uncomfortably latches on to me very hard, having no conscious idea whatsoever that I am attracted to girls, and there's no way I'd ever tell her that either. (I have no interest in her sexually.) I've been attracting young women who had early sexual experiences of different kinds my entire life. Most never knew they were possibly drawn to me for this reason, and it probably would have crushed them to find out.