Good to see anyway that you are alive and well. I thought that maybe you have had another health crisis.
I have a few female friends, who know about my tastes. They are not repulsive to me. And pedophile women are of course a different thing. Plus many of those women who I happen to know in real life.
In literature and videos** there are tons of women who are depicted as sexy or desirable. And in AA meetings many women tell about their relationships with men, "exes" and such crap. This is repulsive to me. (I don't remember any pedophile who has spoken about his/her "ex".)
**E.g. in crime documentaries