Hi GC,

Many months ago, I was in a dark place.

I had taken stock. What do I want the most? What am I willing to do to get it? Where there's a will, there's a way!

Except when there isn't.

My desires and my values are incompatible. Matter and antimatter. If anyone should see them collide, the wave function collapses. There's no uncertainty. It doesn't matter what page you turn to next. The story always has the same ending.

But there was something important in those chapters I was so eager to skip.

A little girl wanted to be my friend, and she wouldn't take no for an answer. She saw right through me, but somehow she didn't see the evil that looked back at me in the mirror.

I gave in, and let her teach me the truth about myself.

I'd had it all wrong. It was never something I wanted to take from her. It's something I want to share with her. Maybe there's no universe where that works out, but that's okay. There are many other ways to make her smile. And that is what I really want the most.

Our time together was always temporary. I always knew that she wasn't in my next chapter, and I wasn't in hers. But I was a wreck when she left, and my desperation for someone to confide in led me here, to this charming little 90s guestbook you guys call home.

That was some months ago, and while GC couldn't be there for me then, I am thankful to Caretaker and Lysithea for trying to breathe some life back into this place, and for giving me the chance to be part of it.

saltwater