Yes, lots of stress, sadlife. But it's that way with most things in life. Even a "push in the bush" (legal, I mean) is not so easy. Heck, I end up breathing hard and sweating after one.
... my OWN morals prevent me from breaking the rules and taking what I want.
I will reiterate a quote from a quote from my past quotes of Robert Heinlein:
I am free, no matter what rules surround me. If I find them tolerable, I tolerate them; if I find them too obnoxious, I break them. I am free because I know that I alone am morally responsible for everything I do.
For example, if the speed limit is 65 mph and there is a lot of traffic, I often will slow down to 20 if needed (it's a limit, not a requirement.) So, too, if the speed limit is 65 on a long, desolate straight-a-way, most people do well above 65. Of course, that's illegal, so I never advocate breaking the laws.... do I?