...that I meant I'm proud only of being a lost cause concerning my attractions.

"Lost cause" is one of those words that people use to discredit their opponent so that they don't have to treat them seriously or with any respect.
As such, I don't get hung up on being labelled, because I know that when a person starts to label or libel they've pretty much reached the end of their ropes.

I agree with your views on lost causes though, and that's precisely why I'm secretly(no secret anymore) glad that you are still here.
It gives you more time and opportunity to see that we may actually be more correct and more rational than those who discredit us.
Also, you say that you have a degree of paedophilia remaining in you from another time that you're trying to excise from yourself, and before you do(if one even can) I want you to consider our side of the argument from a more sympathetic point of view one more time.

(This would be so much easier in Chat...)