I admit, I get obsessed fairly easily. I look at photos quite a bit. Even today, I've been looking at flickr photos that I like. Some are heartbreakingly beautiful to me, in that in some ways they seem just barely out of reach. It can be painful. It has caused me the occasional sleepness night, and even broken heart in the physical sense (pains). At the physical point, I do just step away, and realize that these girls may not be for me anyhow. Either they may be real b**ches, or if I were to pursue a pedo relationship, just just wouldn't work because of age differences or whatever. Thanks in large part to you all, I am learning great coping mechanisms, while at the same time, losing my shame at my orientation.

heartbreaker #1
heartbreaker#2

With heartbreaker #2, I have seen the other photos of her, and as an amateur photographer myself, I can appreciate her shots on a nonsexual level as well. It's just plain excellent photography, excellent wardrobing, and excellent modelling skills (facial expression and such). I love the mystery in it. I am actually happy at just looking at her as a model, and not worrying about anything personal about her, because hey, she's above my core aoa anyway, albeit a very fetching exemption to it)