If they took your child over a matter of your personal beliefs, then all you fight for remains just. Do not satisfy their wish to paint you as an unfit father mentally, emotionally. Do not crumble under their scare tactics, but be sure to distinguish between what is really intended to scare you, and what only apears to be such, as a result of the stress all of this has caused you. Know that some who might claim to be on your side will give you bad advice, simply to use you as a tool for their own hatred of the government, and might not give a damn about your personal well being or even your case. Read some inspiring books about people who overcame immense hardships and prevailed, in order to lift your spirits. You need this. As for getting spit on, that itself should inspire you. Protect your inner peace and stay strong. Tired as you may feel, the worst was already done to you. Inner peace, sharp mind, grip on reality. Protect these things. They are your most vital defenses. Take care..