You are absolutely correct, being a girl lover does come with responsibilities. Taking drugs also comes with responsibilities. I accept the responsibilities of both a girl lover and a drug taker. I would only correct you only on one thing. I do not ever 'lose myself in the abandon of an artificial state of euphoria" thus I do not risk losing myself. I do not use drugs as an escape, but as an affirmation of who I am. I maintain control of my mental faculties, whilst I let the dragon out of his cage for a season...
Even in the days when I wanted to lose myself, I never managed...

Bereshith, not yet fallen from grace...