misery loves company.

Every second, literally, the fear grows.

that's bad. for me, that feeling finally gave way to a kind of relief. But it was touch and go for a while. Maybe wait it out? See if it morphs. Thoughts of the end don't scare me much anymore like they used to.

I believe our real job here is to conquer fear. It is the enemy. Love is the goal. Does it help to think of it that way?

I want the best for all of God's creatures.

Including your self?

ahhh, yes, old 'friends' are darkness, hate, and anger. You could write some pretty cool songs right now. Or do other creative things. These feelings don't HAVE TO be destructive.

Nor do you HAVE TO be the Great Pretender. Like jd said, there are a lot of options.

Anyway, Gatekeeper is one of my fav posters here. He doesn't show up enough IMO. I think of him as very smart, gentle, and I value his contributions. Is that you?