Dante,

thanks for the response. was a little deeper than i was expecting (from anyone) when i posted, i was focused on the negative aspects of my pedophilia. its been quite a long time, possibly years since ive really talked to anyone about anything to do with it. like i said, i had other things going on in my life that distracted me from it.
also, like i said i do tend to overthink, and sometimes it can just be nonsensical.
I do have a child of my own, so Im around him and other children often. The thing is, when i was a bit younger I just wanted to find any reason to not give into my pedophilia, so thats why I talked about the "...shell get hooked on pleasing" ,,, just any reason to never give into anything sexual that may arise from an attraction, etc.I guess my reasons are a little illogical or have no basis in reality, but theyve still served a purpose for me (or maybe they havent) maybe I just wanted to babble, or like have some sort of starting point for conversation. ok, so im not the brightest bulb, but im not here to argue or cause any problems. I guess im here to discover who I am a bit more and maybe I really need some help with that
and sorry about the formatting. like i said im not the smartest. thanks for your response though.