thank you rainbow. makes sense "...and you may find your fantasies adapt and become more in line with their true natured. " im 34 now. when i was about 17 [ edit ] and its been a ride since then. not too long after i started, [ edit ], and the relationships, etc ive had with little girls changed, things have been .. different/lonley/boring/etc... now that i have quit and am finding myself. those speucial moments are taking place again. i cant say how aggravating or confusing it is, to look at little girl after little girl and not really get any special response. they must have noticed i wasnt going to give them my full attention. now that im back to getting that "i know you see me" feeling/look from them, im a little scared. its such a wonderful feeling, or thing to experience and id never want to lost it again. as for my fantasies adapting, and looking at little girls for who they are, and not what I want... well, i suppose a little part of me is like "WHY ME?" i mean, i almost feel like i am responsible for their happiness. almost seems like it is an overwhelming thing. ah like i said in a previos reply... i tend to overthink stuff, and am a little crazy. oh well.

thanks for the reply and for letting me know im not alone.