I hate it. I hate the fact that I feel any jealousy over her at all.

But I don't know how to get rid of it.

It's fine to tell myself "her time is hers to spend with who she wishes", (and that's true of course), but when she wishes to spend it with someone else, and I already see her so rarely as it is... it can be hard to sit through that. The end result is always that I feel jealous of the person getting to spend time with her, and wishing I were him/her.

In my situation, the less time she wanted to spent with me, the moodier I got, and the moodier I got, the less time she wanted to spent with me. So naturally we grew apart.

I wish so much that things could go back to the way they were... but I don't think that's going to happen, especially since I'll most likely never see her again after this week.

Remaining on good terms is important. And so is working on yourself.

The former I will do. The latter I am always doing. (I just need to find a way to get rid of that jealousy.)

Thank you Dante.

- RBL