Re: I can't stop looking at little girls and thinking

First off I think that there is more posting here than when I joined just a little more than a couple of months ago. Also the last few posts of new people that (I think Baldur?) posted contained tons of new people. Many more than were joining at around the time I joined. If anything I think its the fact that this website is a little hard to connect to right now, That it requires e-mail to join (stopped me for a little bit. I think more people need to know of anonymous emailers.), And that the stigma against pedophiles has reached all time highs (Or maybe its actually going down read on).

As to the rest of the I know the feeling. Though I am trying to love myself for the fact that I would never, ever do something to hurt a child. I've even had person after person say I'm an amazing person around others (sometimes they mention children other times they mention everyone.) I just never could shake off the feeling that that would all change if they knew I was a pedophile. That suddenly every good that I had ever done would be instantly erased if they knew and all that would matter was that I was a pedophile despite the fact that I had never acted on it.

That was until today, when a conversation was started about a piece of news that involved the kind of stuff that evil unveiled would be proud of. There were about 15 people when this discussion came up. Several of them tried to change the subject, but it was clear people wanted to talk about it. I was surprised at the negative reaction to what they were doing to pedophiles. Some were downright pissed about it. Other than 2 people every single one of the rest said what they were doing was wrong to varying degrees.

I've been told by pedophiles before that I am weak because I feel I need others approval to be happy. Maybe I am, but it doesn't matter because suddenly I felt so much better hearing those people. Maybe there actually is hope for us after all (and I'm not just talking about pedo's here)