Sometimes I wish the equivalent of the

"Format" function for Mp3 players, could be done on my brain.

It's not that I no longer want to be a Ped (for I know, even with no brain at all, my body and eyes would still be inclined toward cuteness), but rather to just have all the Dogma out of my head (the shit that's stuck there from a religious upbringing and from knowing that I'm a hated minority, and other unwanted social conditioning).

I want a clean slate brain, and empty memory banks.

I wonder if I could sign myself up, somewhere (as a ginny-pig - obviously), for such a procedure to be done to me. I just couldn't let them know of my pedness, since if they knew, they might just decide to fill my head up with more junk (negative social conditioning) than I already have. So actually, Maybe I'll skip the idea of having such a procedure done. I wouldn't want to take such a risk, of ending up worse off than I already am.

But if I could press a button and do the procedure myself, and then arrange for some friends to help relearn me (to be near me while being re-established to my surroundings and the language), I might just do it.

Anyways......