Re: I Can't Go Home Again :(

Hey, Catcher. Thank you for the support!

Just a curious question. If you could choose to only be a teen permanently, and not be able to switch back and forth at will like you describe here, would you?

In a heartbeat. And this despite the fact that, as I said, I treasure my civil rights beyond words and my ideal situation would be to have a foot in the door of both worlds rather than being confined to just one. Nevertheless, the world of teens would be my choice if I had to pick one world or the other to exist in because though I consider the adult world a nice and very useful and productive place to visit on many levels, which is why I would hate to lose access to it entirely, the world of teens is what I consider to be home.

I've always missed childhood, and not only because of my attractions to little girls. It really is a magical time of ones life.

It is indeed a magickal time of one's life, where everything is new to us and therefore fascinating, with each new thing we learn making life seem like a grand adventure rather than an ordeal to be endured. The wonder of discovery as seen through the eyes of a child is truly incredible, and I have striven to retain as much of this aspect of love for the discovery of new things as possible in my life as I have reached adulthood because just as I don't believe children should be forced to be a "child" according to strict Victorian precepts since they will lose the opportunity to learn and discover certain things that may be quite positive for them, I likewise believe that adults shouldn't be culturally impelled to be an "adult" in a way that strictly adheres to the current paradigm for that phase of one's life that society has created, because if we lose that sense of wonder at new discoveries, the sense of sheer idealism and optimism, and the ability to see all things as possible that are characteristics of a child, we lose something extremely precious (and I am NOT talking about our current cultural conception of "innocence") that can easily be retained if we didn't feel it was "inappropriate" and a sign of "immaturity" to do so. That giving up these positive traits that young people typically have is not a good thing to do is quite clear when you look at the current state of the adult-dominated world.