Many thanks for that reply IM. You are right to give me the benefit of any 'doubt'. Everything I have written is true, and if it seems graphic, it is only a want to 'get it off my shoulders' on the shrink's couch that this forum can provide.

I didn't go looking for this LGF, and don't normally seek out the company of LGs, but it has evolved and - well here it is. Now I find myself in these situations more often, solely because she is doing things more often, and that is because she is reaching 'that' age. Hence in turn my post frequency and detail increases, because there is simply more to get off my chest.

I can sure see what you mean about not forming such relationships, because it puts temptation within reach.

I love it and hate it in equal measure.

In a way I wish she wasn't around quite so much, because then I could move on to other things and in time forget how she makes me float. But then again, I love that she is around, and that I get these little unexpected treats from her. But then that makes me hate it again, because I go about 24 hours afterwards, just floating. (That's when you'll typically see a post from me, while I struggle with the aftermath.)

But this is all new to me, so excuse me coming here to ask advice from those who have been in the same situation before. I have received great advice, which is EXACTLY why I posted. For me, my post worked and succeeded in getting what I needed from it. I now have some really useful ideas of how to direct her behaviour a little more appropriately, to save her, me, and us.

Thanks.

Azure