I read your entire post and it is a horror show tale. I have always hated psychotherapists anyway. I mean suppose they did the same thing for those who prefer big cow-like breasts? Like it was some sort of disease? You know they hook them up to a penile whateveritis and if they get a blood flow looking at some beer poster they get reviled in one way or another. I get the feeling that the whole of American (US American) culture is one big torture chamber for deviants and dissidents. Why does anyone continue to live there? Its not only pedosexuals who are controlled by fear..its like the line in The Professional when they are attacking Leon and Natalie Portman... the DEA guy says "EVREEEEEWON! Everyone in the USA is controlled by fear. And mind-f**ked with lies and phoney presumptions. If you don´t spread your cheeks to Big Brother they´ll torture you one way or another (oh they might not pull out your fingernails), take evrything away from you including your children, your possessions, your ability to be a useful worker. Its not just pedosexuals its EVREEEEEWON!

As in 1984 they have turned everything into what it isn't. They justify the most repressive tactics against humans and the herd bah bahs along denouncing a wet kiss while they beat their children to bloody pulps.

Your comment, "I no longer had fantasies about people, but rather sexual objects." I suppose the same could be said for addicts of anything but it really is a shame (? is that the right cliche ?) to lose the great pleasure of relating to little ones as friends and loved ones. Sex might be part of the dynamic though. CP is a dangerous addiction in more ways than one. I have been wondering if virtual cp, i.e. age regressing adult models with photo shop or drawing out pedosexual fantasies is as damaging to the collector as collecting USENET posts. I doubt if the mind police care. It is your fantasies they want to control. If one is addicted to beaver spreads of post-teen cows´ udders (read big titted female humans if you want) can that be as damaging as a cp addiction to the collector or the cows, or is the lack of mind-police perpetuated guilt-feeling what is most damaging?

You posted, "I ended up in the hospital several times because something would get out of whack and my blood pressure would stay over 200." My comment is that they attempted to murder you spiritually and physically for something that is as normal as any other sexuality in the human spectrum. What the hell gives them the right to maim and kill and control everyone in the world? IMO they have no right. They should be charged with attempted homicide and torture.